October 2, 2018

In Cold Texas

On August 11, 2006 — a sweltering Friday night — 16-year-old Amber Wyatt reported that she had been raped in a storage shed off a dirt road in Arlington, Texas. Few believed her. Her hometown turned against her. The authorities failed her.

This is how Washington Post columnist, Elizabeth Bruenig (now 27 years old) begins an article of her three-year investigation into Amber’s rape. Arlington, Texas is Bruenig’s hometown and Amber Wyatt was Bruenig’s high school classmate. Bruenig’s article (linked in the first sentence of this paragraph) is admittedly long, but includes compelling videos and photos. This article should be required reading for everyone, particularly teenagers and professionals in the healing arts, not only because Amber’s story must be heard, but also because Bruenig’s narrative is haunting. Searing. Even beautiful.

While I read the article, I was reminded of portions of Truman Capote’s ground-breaking book, In Cold Blood, that ushered in a new literary form: “the non-fiction novel.” The book could have easily laid out the basic facts about the murder of four members of the Clutter family in the little town of Holcomb, Kansas on November 15, 1959. But Capote took those facts to a new place: poignant insights into the nature of American violence. Following is the first sentence  of In Cold Blood:

The village of  Holcomb stands on the high wheat plains of western, Kansas, a lonesome area that other Kansans call “out there.”

Already, the reader knows that what is to follow will be something beyond what she or he has experienced. For two and a half pages, Capote then details the seeming serenity, even ho-humness of Holcomb . . . until the last paragraph of the opening:

 . . . few Americans — in fact — few Kansans — had ever heard of Holcomb. Like the waters of the river, like the motorists on the highway, and like the yellow trains streaking down the Santa Fe tracks, drama, in the shape of exceptional happenings, had never stopped there . . . . But then, in the earliest hours of that morning in November, a Sunday morning, certain foreign sounds impinged on the normal nightly Holcomb noises — on the keening hysteria of coyotes, the dry scrape of scuttling tumbleweed, the racing, receding wail of locomotive whistles. At the time not a soul in sleeping Holcomb heard them — four shotgun blasts that, all told, ended six human lives. But afterward the townspeople, theretofore sufficiently unfearful of each other to seldom trouble to lock their doors, found fantasy re-creating them over and again — those somber explosions that stimulated fires of mistrust in the glare of which many old neighbors viewed each other strangely, and as strangers.

Haunting. Searing. Even beautiful.

Following is an excerpt from Part One of Bruenig’s account of Amber’s rape:

Eventually, I heard that the girl had recanted her allegations and then had gone away; the writing on the cars, too, went away, and the question of what had happened that night.

And then it was quiet, life was mundane, things resumed: Like an ancient society settling back to rights after a gladiatorial game or ritual sacrifice.

Yet despite the fortune of a happy life, I found it difficult, over the ensuing years, not to think about what happened that August. I still remembered the taste of summer there, and the pregnant threat of storm clouds, among which flashes of lightning pulsed like veins of silver, and the sense that youth meant collecting inklings of things I couldn’t fully know. One of them was the impression I had gained that year, that vulnerability sometimes begets bloodlust and revulsion, even in seemingly ordinary people. Another was the sense that the damage that follows litters the underside of society, beneath the veneer of peace.

Bruenig’s vulnerability validates the truth that is to follow. Amber was raped in the loft of a shed. Crime scene photos show 12 buck heads neatly hanging on the first floor of the shed:

. . . another half dozen strewn on the ground of the loft, antlers tangled like bramble, eyes wide and staring. Wyatt’s panties are there, too, on the concrete under the empty watch of the beheaded deer. How blunt it seems, overstated almost — prey among prey.

Many a treatise on brutality has taken deer as its subject, because the pleasure derived from killing them is so disturbing in light of their docile grace. Montaigne laments the dying cries of a wounded hart in his essay on cruelty; so does William Wordsworth in his poem “Hart-Leap Well.” Both Montaigne and Wordsworth meditate on the deer’s last stagger, the long prelude to death, the moment the light leaves its eyes.

Wyatt had eyes like that: thick-lashed, wide and dark, dimmed to vacancy at times by drugs and alcohol. She was beautiful, and she was vulnerable. And everyone knew it.

Over and over again, Bruenig  demonstrates the ultimate purpose of stories: every story is light, and every story is us. Read Amber’s story and discover who we are.

8 Comments

  • Following are lines from the first excerpt from Part One of Bruenig’s article in this post:

    “The pregnant threat of storm clouds, among which flashes of lightning pulsed like veins of silver . . . .”

    Note the use of the adjective, “pregnant” in an article about rape and “flashes of lightning” in an article about piecing together facts and memories.

    Stunning.

  • Just read this in the Washington Post:

    “Conservative commentator Ann Coulter bemoaned the ‘snickering at white men’ in her syndicated column last week and insisted that ‘there has never been a more pacific, less rapey creature than the white male of Western European descent.'”

    I believe that throwing any version of the word, “rape” into an opinion is not unlike throwing in the name, “Hitler.” I am reminded of these lines from Auntie Em in “The Wizard of Oz” (with some editorial license):

    “Anne Coulter, just because you own the minds of nearly half the country doesn’t mean that you have the power to control our minds, or for that matter, our bodies. For 23 years, I’ve been dying to tell you what I thought of you, and now . . . well, being a Christian woman, I can’t say it!”

    [I confess many would argue about assigning “Christian woman” to me.]

  • Phew … quite a read. Thank you for sharing this, Sharon. I never would have found it on my own and am grateful for my last minute change of schedule, which gave me time to read it now. Yes, hauntingly beautiful writing … and those images and videos! The experienced journalist herself appearing as “just a kid” to me.

    I am grateful to Bruenig for following up on her haunting memory of this event and for her willingness to stay with Amber’s story through many changes in her own life. Grateful most of all to Amber, for being willing to “go there again,” retelling and reliving her horror story once again, this time in front of the whole world. Finally, someone listened.

    Two quotes stay with me now:

    “There will always be acts of cruelty prepackaged with plausible deniability, or the easy cover of crowds to disperse responsibility.”
    This one, of course, is chillingly relevant to current events; Also,

    “… and I hope that it troubles you, because the moral conscience at ease accomplishes nothing.”
    That one, I need stitched on a pillow to encourage my work for gun violence awareness and prevention.

    • Beth, Beth, Beth:

      It means so much to me that you took the time and effort to read this important and timely narrative about Amber Wyatt. I confess that when I first saw this piece — it encompasses six full pages in the Washington Post — I set it aside. “This will take too long to read,” I said, and went back to the latest issue of Entertainment Weekly. But by the time I got to end of the fourth paragraph, I was hooked. Bruenig’s words were beautiful . . . and this was a story about rape.

      Early yesterday morning, I re-read the story, this time on-line and watched all the videos. Like you, I was stunned by how young Bruenig looked — like one of those students who sit at the high school lunch table where all the smart girls sit.

      Thanks, too, for pointing out those two quotes. Yes, the first one is chillingly relevant to current events; and the second, a rallying cry for all of us.

      Oh, one last thing . . . ongoing gratitude for all you are doing for gun violence and prevention. xoxo

  • Sharon Friend, I don’t have the energy at this point to read Breunig’s article, and I’m not sure when energy will return. So this is not a response to her piece, but rather a thank you to you for letting us know what’s “out there.” Hope I’ll get to read this eventually.

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